New Adventure of Life

So let me start out that I love my kids. But I am ready to go crazy. Emma for some reason has decided to start waking up in the middle of the night multiple times. This has been going on since the end of February and the beginning of March. At first I thought she was going through a growth spurt. It is the end of May and she is still getting up multiple times. I have a feeling it's because she doesn't get enough to eat. She is still eating every two hours and she is almost 7 months old. I have tried giving her baby food since she was 4 months old. She won't eat it. After awhile I kinda just quit because baby food is so expensive here and she was acting like it was hurting her stomach. Well I  decided to start trying again and she still won't eat. I have no idea what else to do. I have to something figured out by July since I have grand jury every Thursday for that month and I need to be able to give her some other things to eat besides breast milk. Payton has back tra...

It has been awhile since I last wrote. I mean I have attempted to write, but  I seem to just lose my train of thought or one of my kids need my attention. Sometimes I feel that I have so much to say, but when I come to write it out I can't get it in the words that I want it to. If that makes any since. I also have been losing sleep most nights. I'm not purposely trying to give excuses, but it's true. I am at a stage in motherhood where my two year wakes up in the middle of the night and joins James and I in bed. My almost 6 months old wakes up in the middle of the night still if she goes to bed before 9:30. It's worse on the nights that James has to be up early the next morning for work. There are days that I am barely awake until the afternoon. Sometimes I set an alarm on my ipod just to make sure I'm awake just in case I start drifting off to sleep in the morning. That mostly happens when Emma is taking her nap and Payton is watching Curious George. The last week...

Well this is another attempt at starting a post. My life feels crazy tight now. The last time I posted I was still pregnant.  November 1, 2014 I had little miss Emma. It's been fun and exhausting so far having two kids. Payton is getting a lot better with her than at the beginning. Emma has been teething that last month or so, but know teeth yet. I don't expect them anytime soon though. She has been waking up screaming like she is in pain and if you rub her gums she calms down so at least we know her issue. Her first 3 months she was colicky. That has gotten a lot better. Payton just celebrated his second birthday this month. It's hard to believe that James and I have a two year old. He has been a big helper with some things. He loves to try helping me burp Emma. I personally think he likes "hitting" her with out getting into trouble. He does it gently by the way. Anyways we have been trying to figure out how to help him sleep at night. He won't sleep throug...

These last two weeks have been hard on me. I have been feeling stressed, overwhelmed. and all together just about every other emotion out there. One thing happens and then the everything just down falls from there. I know in my last post I talked about faith and how I was dealing with getting all these bills. Well this should be the last week of my "stress" on that part. Everything I know will work out and I sit here trying not to let it bother me. We go into Anchorage this coming Friday. I am so ready to go and get a little break. Even though it's only going to be twos days. I just need it. I need a break from my everyday schedule. Payton is starting to figure out that there is a change coming. He has been naughty a lot more. (In my opinion) I'm also very hormonal so that might have a play in it. I feel like I lose my temper more with him in last couple weeks than I have in a really long time. It hurts me when I lose my temper. I feel like a horrible mom. I often h...

As I am sitting watching Anne of Green Gables I keep thinking on what is going in my (our) life. We keep getting bills that we have to pay and they all happen to be due around the time we go to Anchorage.  So as I pay bills I see our grocery money slowly going down. I have been trying not to worry or stress, but last night was my breaking point. Over the weekend I was figuring out our account and how much bills we have to pay. While in church yesterday listening to the message I all of a sudden thought of another bill that we had to pay that I didn't know how we will pay it. During the message my pastor was talking about how God provided manna to the Israelite's for 40 years. He knew what they need and provided that. So here I am stressing about how we are going to make it without going in the negative and our pastor ends his sermon with God provides. I know that God provides. It's just hard to see what little money we have get used up. We have never gone without. We have a...

It's been a couple months since I last posted. Sorry about that. Well here is a little update. I will try not to forget anything, but can't guarantee that with my pregnancy brain and lack of sleep. :)  June was just a normal month until the last Sunday of the month. James got a phone call while he was working. Who knew that phone call was an answer to our prayers. Someone called and asked James if we were looking for a place to live. He felt that he should call James. Total God thing! James told him  we were. So this person told James that he had a 3 bedroom apartment coming available the first of August. Works for us. Anyways we met up with this person to look at the place a couple days later. It won my vote as soon I saw we had a washer and dryer :).  It was in our price range if we had to pay any utilities. We have to pay water and electric, not a big deal. Our fuel for heat is included. Oh another plus is that our landlords are believers and run one of the local rad...

For those who don't know, James and I are expecting are second child in November. Now we are in the process of looking for a new place to rent since we are going to outgrow where we live. I am hoping we can find a place by the end of summer. I am ready to move.   To give a little update on what we have been up to since I last posted.  We went to Aniak to butcher the moose that James got at the end of February.  Found out that I was pregnant the weekend we got back from Aniak. March was a pretty quiet month for us.  April kicked off with us going to Anchorage for a week with my mother-in-law for a vacation.  Had my first prenatal appointment.  House/dog sat for some friends. Now that brings us to May which we went back to Aniak just before mothers day for our cousins High School graduation. James left the Monday and Payton and I left the Tuesday after Mothers day.   James and I celebrated four years of marriage Now we are ...