Birthday

So as sit here I'm thinking about my birthday. This year is going to be different. Not just because I'm in Alaska and not home with my family. Growing up I celebrated my birthday away from home. Some were at summer camp. I had my aunt there and my cousins since they either were working or attending that week. My sixteenth birthday I took my first plane ride ever and went down to Guyana, South America. All the other years I might have been home with family, but I honestly couldn't tell where I was for my birthday before my ninth birthday. This my birthday is going to be different because I am in Alaska with my husband starting our new life. He's the only family that I need. I do miss my family in Michigan and Georgia and my in-laws in Illinois. But when I married James he became the only family that I do need in my life. I don't need my family around me celebrating my birthday. I want it but I don't need it. This year I'll be celebrating my 23rd birthday with James and his aunt, uncle and cousins. Yes they are family. This might be my last year celebrating with any sort of family. I don't know where God will have us next year. We might have our first child by then or it will just be James and I. Right now I'm alright with it being James and I. I would love to have a child by next year, but I don't know Gods plan in that area. He might not want us to have children or He wants us to wait another few years.  

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

At the end

It's 8:05 pm the night before my due date. I can't believe I'm the end of my pregnancy. I know that Payton can be late, but knowing the end is near is kinda nice. I've enjoyed being pregnant, but these last 3 weeks have been really hard for me. I not the biggest fan of surprises. I have to know what or when something is going to happen. James has a hard time surprising me because I'm always trying figure out what he is doing. *He did surprise me today with some chocolate and a Valentines day card*  Anyways knowing that Payton could come any time excites me, but also terrifies me. I mean when in the world is he going to show. I wish I could just be give a date saying that he will be born that day. Not a due date since most babies are not born on their actual due date. Poor James, I've kept him up numerous time in the past few weeks freaking out, stressing, etc. over this whole not knowing and knowing that I can't do anything about it really. God knows and I h...
Read more

Trusting.

Well, I've been going down the road of life trying to trust God in every situation. I'm praying and hoping that my husband can get a job soon, seeing since we are out of money and have bills still coming, mostly my student loans. I'm struggling with all of this just because James doesn't have a job yet. I'm sure I wouldn't be as stressed out if we had some money flow coming in.   During all of this I think back to when my dad had his open heart surgery 9 months ago. My mom was also trusting and believing that God would provide during that time. My parent's had bills coming in and had no money to pay them. My dad had his surgery on the monday before thanksgiving in 2010. My mom would come home during the week stay and there would be money in the mail for her and it was always enough to get her through.  I wish I could be like my mom and have the faith that she did. I've been very emotional during all of this. I haven't gotten a good night rest since...
Read more

might be good-bye for now, but not forever.

Almost every night I have a hard time falling asleep. Half of the time it's because I just am not tired enough to fall asleep, the other half is because my brain won't shut off. I always have different things that I want to write about in a blog, but then by the morning I forget about it. During the day I think oh I should write a blog.  I told James that I want to write one blog per week for the whole year. He just laughed at me and said, you'll run out of things to write about. Right now I feel like he is write, but on the other hand I feel like I can write a lot. Everything I want to write about is getting pregnant and the separation period with James being in a different village. So I guess I won't be writing a blog for awhile, since my last I don't know how many blogs have been about getting pregnant and my separation time. I don't want to bore all the people that might actually read this. So unless I can think of something else, you might not hear from me ...
Read more