Trusting.

Well, I've been going down the road of life trying to trust God in every situation. I'm praying and hoping that my husband can get a job soon, seeing since we are out of money and have bills still coming, mostly my student loans. I'm struggling with all of this just because James doesn't have a job yet. I'm sure I wouldn't be as stressed out if we had some money flow coming in.
  During all of this I think back to when my dad had his open heart surgery 9 months ago. My mom was also trusting and believing that God would provide during that time. My parent's had bills coming in and had no money to pay them. My dad had his surgery on the monday before thanksgiving in 2010. My mom would come home during the week stay and there would be money in the mail for her and it was always enough to get her through.
 I wish I could be like my mom and have the faith that she did. I've been very emotional during all of this. I haven't gotten a good night rest since i've been in alaska. When I first got here i was up because of my teeth. Then because of my antibiotics. Now it's just stress. I can go to sleep between 10:30 and 11, and i will be up between 1:30 and 2.

Well I'm gonna end this for now.

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  1. Cheryl LJuly 12, 2011 at 2:28 PM

    So nice to see you posting, its nice to know whats been going on since you left. I miss ya at work, but girl..... you need to learn to relax and trust in God! What your parents have been thru is a great example at what happens when you put your problems in the hands of the Lord. He will guide you thru all of this, and in time you will be able to look back and see that. Just try to relax tho, that will help you more than sitting and worrying about things. You need sleep too, take time to say prayers before bed, those will help you. Hope your teeth are feeling better tho. Take a nice walk during the day, something to clear your mind of things. Enjoy that beauty around you, it looks like Gods Country there. Just looks breathtaking, peaceful and so beautiful. Hang in there honey, everything will work out just fine....listen to Mom and Dad! Big hugs to you :-)

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  2. AnonymousJuly 12, 2011 at 3:33 PM

    I'll be praying while you cast all your cares upon Him!

    Melanie T.

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