New Adventure of Life

These last two weeks have been hard on me. I have been feeling stressed, overwhelmed. and all together just about every other emotion out there. One thing happens and then the everything just down falls from there. I know in my last post I talked about faith and how I was dealing with getting all these bills. Well this should be the last week of my "stress" on that part. Everything I know will work out and I sit here trying not to let it bother me. We go into Anchorage this coming Friday. I am so ready to go and get a little break. Even though it's only going to be twos days. I just need it. I need a break from my everyday schedule. Payton is starting to figure out that there is a change coming. He has been naughty a lot more. (In my opinion) I'm also very hormonal so that might have a play in it. I feel like I lose my temper more with him in last couple weeks than I have in a really long time. It hurts me when I lose my temper. I feel like a horrible mom. I often h

As I am sitting watching Anne of Green Gables I keep thinking on what is going in my (our) life. We keep getting bills that we have to pay and they all happen to be due around the time we go to Anchorage.  So as I pay bills I see our grocery money slowly going down. I have been trying not to worry or stress, but last night was my breaking point. Over the weekend I was figuring out our account and how much bills we have to pay. While in church yesterday listening to the message I all of a sudden thought of another bill that we had to pay that I didn't know how we will pay it. During the message my pastor was talking about how God provided manna to the Israelite's for 40 years. He knew what they need and provided that. So here I am stressing about how we are going to make it without going in the negative and our pastor ends his sermon with God provides. I know that God provides. It's just hard to see what little money we have get used up. We have never gone without. We have a