New Adventure of Life

Since I have been here in Alaska, I learned one thing that will be really important to me in order to feed my family. I canned fish. Salmon actually. It was so disgusting at the beginning. Having to cut the fish into chunks and then put them into jars. I hate fish. I don't like the taste of it, seriously it makes me feel sick every time I eat it. James' aunt has fish in the rotation of meals for every 3rd night. So when I know that day for fish is here I can prepare myself. I try to eat more before dinner, or I end up eating more after dinner. I can only handle a very small amount of the fish. There are days that we use the can fish for salmon crackers. All you do is make the salmon in the jars like you do tuna fish and eat it with crackers. They use pilot bread to eat the salmon with. I can't eat that kind of bread since it's to hard for my teeth. Anyways I can eat the can salmon a little better then I can a filet piece of salmon. The next time I jarred was recently. I

Lately I have had fear that I will wake up in the morning with a swollen face. I know that seems strange to have that fear, but I seriously haven't been able to sleep at night lately. Ever since I woke up in Anchorage 2 months ago with a swollen face, I still feel like I'm gonna wake up with my big face. My teeth are still sensitive, I need a ton of fillings, a crown, and a bridge/replacement tooth. I need a lot of work done and I don't have the money to do it. I think part of my fear is that I live in the middle of nowhere so to say. Yes there is a dentist here in the village, but they are most likely extremely expensive. In order to go to the dentist, I have to buy a plane ticket and then pay for my visits to the dentist. I try really hard to get rid of this fear, but its really hard. There are days when I can't tell if it's my tooth hurting or if its my sinuses acting up. James' aunt told me that  I should try taking so ibuprofen before I go to bed. So tonigh

Yesterday I got to talk to two of my good friends yesterday on facebook. It made me realize that I miss my friends. I've been here in Alaska for almost 2 months and haven't seen my friends since before I came here to Alaska and some not since college. There are days here that I get really bored and some days I make myself busy that the day flies right on by. I can't just call up a friend and ask them to hang out. There are days I wish I could call up my friend and ask them to go with me to the mall, but I can't. I  can skype with them (if my sound decides to work on my computer.) I am glad I came with James to Alaska. I don't regret us coming at all. Some days I wish I could just go home because I miss everyone. I love my husband and I thank God for bringing him into my life. James became one of my best friends. There are very few people that I can talk to about anything. James is one of them. Yes I have a hard time every now and then telling him whats on my mind, b

Okay, when we moved here to Alaska, James' Uncle Bill was building a place for James and I to stay while we are here. Well it wasn't completely done. So we have been sleeping in the boys room. Well this past Saturday we moved in. We had no electric or heat. We took the boy's mattresses out to sleep on them since the one that James' Aunt Wanda order hasn't come in yet. Let's just say the first night was an adventure. We have no power so we have to use a flashlight to get ready for bed. No heat so I had about 3 blankets on me. I got no sleep that first night because of dogs barking and people talking/yelling loud enough to where if I paid close enough attention I could probably tell you the conversation. After church Sunday, Uncle Bill got the electric hooked up so we now have light and a place to plug in our alarm clock (which is our old cell phone) so James could get up for work in the morning. We still have no heat don't no when we will get it. There is als

This past week, I have been getting utility bills in the mail here in Alaska. The thing is they are from my house in Michigan. My sister and her family moved in with James and I back in November 2010 and decided to take over the rent when we moved here. Well she was going to switch the all the bills in her name, but hadn't gotten around to it. I did a change of address at the post office and didn't really think about if they changed the name in the bills. Anyway James and I were at the post office picking up our mail and he is looking through it and saw our gas bill from consumers energy. So I got online messaged my sister and she said she would take care of it not to worry. On Monday I went to the post office to go see if our checks and/or debit cards had come in yet, I really needed them to come in because I have bills (student loans, life insurance) to pay. I had the money in my bank, but I had no way to pay them with out the checks. Well I got excited because they both came

Yesterday, 8-7-11, was an interesting day for me. I was happy one minute and then mad then crying because i'm being mean to my husband, to realizing why all of this was going on inside me. Anyways... poor James had to deal with my change in thinking. I was getting mad at him for no reason. As he sat patiently in our room waiting for me to start talking, which I really didn't want to do, but he didn't listen when I told him to leave me alone. When I look back I'm glad he didn't leave. He has learned that I get mad at him for leaving me. I tell him that he is ignoring me, but then again I get mad if he stays around me. He has been able to read me and is able to tell what he should do, stay or leave. Well yesterday he decided to stay. When I started talking, it came out that I just wanted to go "home" back to Michigan. I wanted to be near my family. Mostly my niece and nephews. Yes I miss my siblings and my parents, etc..., but it was mostly my niece and neph

My friend CiJi and I are doing a 30 day picture challenge. It was on facebook for awhile, but i decided  it would be better to put on here instead. So I will be putting the pictures up every few days to let you all see my progress. Day 1- Self- portrait, Day 2- What you wore today, Day 3 - Clouds, Day 4- Something green, Day 5- From high angle, Day 6- From low angle. Now here are the Pictures.

Today I made some chocolate chip cookies. As I was getting ready to put my last batch in the oven, I realize that I have made cookies at least 2 or 3 other times since being here in Alaska. Okay there is more to my realization then just that. What I really realized was that I didn't have 3 different pairs of hands helping me.  Before I moved here to Alaska, my niece and nephews you lived with my husband and I. Oh and their parents lived with us too. Anyways back on what I talking about. It use to take me forever just to make the cookie dough because I had 3 different  hands helping me. Well today I was amazed that it didn't take me as long to make the cookie dough. I also realize I miss those 3 little munchkins a lot. I miss them helping me bake in the kitchen, or bugging me when I say "I think I want to make cookies or I want to make brownies" Sometimes I didn't really want to bake them, I just wanted them to appear in front of me because they sounded good. All t