Heavens Gain

This weekend I went to Illinois to visit/ surprise my mother-in-law for mothers day. I was having a great time down there when my best friend CiJi text me saying grandpa was being rushed to the hospital. When I got this text I was at Aldi's. I just stopped whatever I was doing to pray like she asked me too since it didn't look good. After I have left Aldi's my mother-in-law had to run to one more store before we got home. When we were at this store I got the text from CiJi say "He didn't make it" Everything around me just stopped. This was my "grandpa" he has been part of my life for as long as CiJi and I been friends. When my own grandpa past away, he brought me into his family with open arms. I was one of his "girls" He might not be with us today here on earth, but I know he is enjoying every minute up in Heaven with Jesus.

   The rest of my night was rough. I was numb. every time I saw a new update in my news feed on facebook I just started to cry. This lady from my church posted a picture with me and two of his other granddaughters and his at CiJi's from last year. That is when I lost it and just had to be alone away from others so I can cry. 

  I don't know when I will see my "grandpa" again, but I know that I will someday be seeing him in Heaven.  It's comforting to me to know that I will get to see him again as well as my real grandpa that past away four and a half years ago. I can't wait to see them both again. I know that God has a plan for all of us and that we don't know when our last day is. I'm looking for to meeting God face to face when my time is up here on earth.

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