Leaving

  The time is drawing near for me to leave my home state and move and start a life in a new state. People are always asking how I'm feeling about this big move. I'm always saying I'm excited, nervous, and that I'm ready to get out of Michigan. Today I finish my last day of work and I got hit with the realization that in just a little more than two weeks that I will be boarding an airplane heading to my new home in Alaska. I'm not going to lie, I'm starting to get extremely freaked out. My poor husband is having a hard time dealing with my different emotions. One minute I'm happy excited to leave and then the next thing I'm crying because I realize what I am leaving behind.  
  This past week I've been trying to do something with my niece and nephews since its my last week really with them.They are going to be gone visiting my brother and his family during my last week in Michigan and when they get back I'll be leaving the next day. I have watch these 3 kids grow up. My oldest nephew Carter is amazing I was around the whole time my sister was pregnant for him. I got to miss part of band camp because he was born. I was there when he woke up looking for his mommy and daddy the day that my sister went to the hospital to have my niece.  Oh man I am going to miss my crazy niece Kenna and her obsession with headbands. She is the most girly girl tomboy that I have ever known. She could would be all in a dress headband in place and you look out the window and she is playing in the dirt or playing with her brothers. Now there is my nephew Jack. He is the youngest of the three. He can make you laugh when you want to mad or sad. He just brings complete joy to whoever is around.  These 3 crazy kiddos hold a special place in my heart. I got to watch them grow in the short life so far. I'm kinda bum that I won't be around as much anymore to finish watching them grow.
  Now I won't for get my brother son. He isn't a year old yet and I only have met him and seen him once in his short life. You see my brother lives in Georgia. I think this has helped me realize I won't be able to watch all of my nieces and nephews grow up. I love my brothers son and I can't wait until the next time I see him, but I have to wait and see when that is. I know that I have three younger sister still and when they all get married and have kids I won't be seeing them either. Yes I will miss all them, but I will love them even as far away that I will be.
  

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  1. michelelongfieldJune 10, 2011 at 5:51 PM

    You were meant to do great things Becka Doodles! Although I am going to miss seeing you, I know you are beginning a new chapter in your life and can not wait to see how your story goes! Love you much!!

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